If One More Smoker Says To Me 'it Will Get Easier' .........
In February I realised that I was smoking 40 cigarettes a day. It took me 34 years to get to that point. I also realised that I felt like HELL, headaches, rapid heartbeat, lungs felt like they were drowning, pains in chest, legs etc etc etc. The thought of giving up filled me with horror as I couldnt imagine life without my cigs. I went along to my local smoking cessation clinic where the results of my carbon monoxide blood level shocked even the counsellor!!! Anyway, I have been taking Champix for 6 weeks - I found it quite a relief not to smoke at first and the pills really do take away any withdrawals and most of cravings. SO.......why do I keep giving in and having a cig ?(Im directing that question to myself, not you!!). Its as though I cant let go. Champix is really good but it doesnt stop the incessant arguaments I have with myself in my head. Its driving me mad. Today I have had a major set back and given in totally, with the promise that I will start again tomorrow. Smokers are the worst people to try to make me feel good about not smoking.....'It will get easier' (how do YOU know that as you smoke your 20th *** of the day, eh?) .......'You've done it now, you've cracked it, why would you smoke again when you havent for over a month? (why dont YOU give take that *** out of your mouth and try not having one for ten minutes, eh? Now tell me why I shouldnt want one).
I AM going to do it, along with cutting down on the alcohol, losing weight, doing more exercise (because doing all these things will make me feel LOTS better). The problem is that not doing all these things makes you feel so flaming miserable and totally fed up with life that its a massive struggle to even make the decision to improve things.
Apart from the above, life is a breeze!!!!