I Want Feel Like I'm Worth Something

When I was around 4 or 5 my sister who is 9 years older than me started molesting me until I was about 9 or 10.
My mother didn't find out until I was 16 and she acted as if she cared but when it came down to confronting my sister about what she did my mother told me that my sister was having a bad day so she decided not to. I hate her for that. I go through pain because of it...sometimes I put it out of my mind but them a few weeks later I'll have a dream about it and want to kill myself just from the thought of it. I feel like no one has ever been in my corner, like no one has ever truly loved me. I hate myself for doing it I feel dirty and used but most of all I feel worthless. Im 20 now and in college but it still hurts just as bad.If anyone can reach out to me just to talk someone who has gone through something similar i'd be thankful.
Prettygirl13 Prettygirl13
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 16, 2010

Hello. I know this is late. it's been two years since you posted this. <br />
but i understand.<br />
just thought you'd like to know you're not alone.