Dear Clove

Dear 15 year old me...
The first thing you need to know is that it's not your fault. It is always the adults fault when there is abuse of a child. The second thing you need to know is that it is about power and control and you can choose to take your power back or choose to keep being a victim. You are very strong to share your story, many girls could never have the courage and having your family behind you too is awesome.
You will have days you never think about it and days it consumes you. There will be years that pass where you rarely think about it at all and there will be times it comes back to haunt you... Maybe when you get married or have a daughter or when she turns the age you were when it happened... Try to look at it as something that happened, it has passed, you have survived and now you are ready for better things. What makes you feel stronger??? Writing about it? Helping others? Maybe confronting him in a letter even If you don't ever send it it's like having a secret weapon in your pocket;) maybe painting or drawing or sculpting your hurt into something beautiful that others can see or something twisted that you can hurl at his car??? However you decide to live it out let it out, and you win.
wildkittn wildkittn
31-35, F
Dec 11, 2012