Love Sucks

I feel in love with a married man. I trusted him beyond anyone I have ever trusted...i told him all about my abusive ex-boyfriends, my ********* father, my self harm, my strained relationship with my mother and my inability to trust...but yet I trusted him. We laughed, shared our murky pasts, spent countless hours in each other arms talking of the future, children, moving, marriage. He still 'loves' his wife. And I am left on the floor of the shower crying, and I can't tell anyone. It's my fault. I should have known better, and now I am even more dead inside than I was before.
justanotherdamagedgirl justanotherdamagedgirl
22-25
May 13, 2012