Unwanted DreamsMy life sucks , I really hate it . What can I say I'm a rebellious punk rock kid . My parents being pastors really wrecked my life . I cannot do anything, they use religion against my beliefs.
I wanna run away to a place where I cannot be stepped on, judged, or someone who doesn't crush my dreams. I grew up hating my parents. I know for a fact they don't like me.
My parents where NEVER there for me, they critize me and believe everything I do is wrong. Ya'know what hurts the most? They don't realize when depression is hugging me, when I hurt. I am fed up with them.
My family- sucks too. They're all hyprokits, nosy, un-trusting adults that talk **** about you behind your back. I want out I wanna leave from this Unwanted Dream.
I want to escape for awhile and be free. But I know that will Never happen . That's why I plan to leave to New York, far away as possible from them. Is this too much to ask for ? I've suffered all my life !
I honestly think I won't make it this year, I've suffered with depression as a baby, selfharm & eating disorders growing up. I'm done. I want something better for me. I was NEVER perfect enough for my parents. I had to be the best of the best. A rolemodel for all the kids at church, I was only 5 years old when I was set for this expectation
I need a break