Run From Everything

I just want to run away leave everyone and everything behind. Maybe I just want to runaway from myself. I hate everything in my life, including myself. I dont want to be here, I dont want to be around the people that surround my right now. I just dont feel like I belong here. I mean yes this is an amazing place to live and whatnot, but just isnt for me. I am not comfortable here anymore. I want to go somewhere that I am used to. I want to move back to my home. The place that I am used to where the crackheads run up and down the street half naked, you hear police sirens all night long, you hear you neighbors beating their wifes and the children hollaring about it, you hear gun shots night and day, back where everyone you pass is either a drug dealer or a drug head or a *****,everyone knows everyones bussiness, where we sit on our front porch during winter summer spring and fall, the police is too scared to **** with some of the people there, you can smoke a blunt in the middle of the day in front of the cops and they ask for a drag, where the ghetto is where everyone wants to be, where its normal to fight a ***** everyday, where youll get your *** beat but people still look at you as a badass for standing up to the *****, where no one is scared of anything not, where you can pull out a gun and people would just laugh because if they die they die protecting their people, where nothing matters but the money, sex, and drugs, the place where I came from. I was born and raised in that place I know everyone that is there, and strangers arent welcome there. Yes, it is silly for me to want to go back to such an awful place, but its what I was raised to be.
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
May 21, 2012