So Many Perverts

Dear Mr Chocolate,

Today I wanna talk to you. Where are u when I get bullied? Where are you when perverts trying....

I may as well cut my hair short and be a tom boy than to wait for you to protect me?

It makes me cry because you never keep your promises. And you are no where to be found. And you are also just a pervert yourself. I just wanna cry.

I am so weak to defend myself. I am so slow to react. It's really terrible.

I already do not wear dresses or look nice. I try to look at plain and simple and no makeup, no flirts, just nothing. But disgusting old men or dirty perverts just try to push. It's sexual harassment. It's wrong for them to pretend to teach you but approach right behind you so close and I regret not being fast enough to react. Even a few second makes me sick.

But you did the same bad thing to me, you said you loved me. But you never did. All you wanted was lust. That was it. I didn't want to believe. I tried not to believe. I know you used me but I didn't want to believe. It feels so terrible with this repressed feeling.

I don't know what to do. I just keep crying. I don't know how to express this kind of sadness. I will never trust any guys anymore. Yet in daily life I still can't escape some really low creatures. They just are everywhere. I need to fight. I need to learn. Because no one to protect me. All of them are just trying to take advantages of me. It's very sad.

I need to look 24/7 like I am untouchable or if you dare i would kick them so hard.

So many perverts to make girls like me feel bad about being pretty sometimes. I can't really make myself anymore ugly.

I just need to look angry. But I don't want to stress. I don't want to cry.

I wish there is fairy to help me please.
ludai ludai
22-25
Jan 11, 2013