Im Sorry

Im sorry Im not around much anymore

Im sorry that when I am I am miserable, writing pathetic blogs, not commenting on anything of anyone elses, and wallowing.

Im sorry I am snappy and rude and impatient.

Im sorry I am always offended by everything.



I always think I should be fine here, people who are poor at social situations seem to be in abundance here. You would think I would feel comfortable.

But this place is somewhere social, to me at least. This is where so many of my friends are. And, just like when Im out with friends, I feel constantly rejected, over looked, ignored, not good, smart, funny, pretty etc enough. This is just as stressful as being down the pub. I cannot be around people in any form without feeling like everyone hates me and whats me gone, or that everyone wants me to go, or that Im not welcome here.



Im sorry. Ill snap out of it soon. I hope.

Tesse Tesse
18-21, F
11 Responses Mar 4, 2009

Dont say sorry..and write what u feel.i know we want u here,we love u dont u know that?many many hugs*

thank you sweetie, very much :) it is much appreciated. <br />

so do i.<br />
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but im holding on. ill get there, im sure. ill just kick and scream the whole way.

Aww. I worry about you.

ha, thank you love :)<br />

((((((((((((((((((((((((LT))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))<br />
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Brut hugs all of the time for you. I will put you in a brut pod and shoot you into brut space<br />
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you will love it...

thank you.

Sorry you're feeling so lousy. You're a very talented photographer.

thank you. i hope so too. i just wish i had something a bit stronger than hope.

im being a miserable *****. i hate it. i hate myself so ******* much right now, and i just cant seem to snap out of it. im constantly restless, constantly tired, constantly a ******* ridiculous mess. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate ******* everything right now. even people i love. i cant stand them. i cant stand anyone. but i stick around everyone, because as much as it feels like i hate them, i dont hate their company half as much as i hate my own.

Im also sorry for being so arrogant as to think people notice my absence.