You Hurt Me....

mom and dad....

you were never there for me. you never cared about me. you never put me 1st. i was always after you. my needs were never important enough for you. you never made me feel loved by you. you never made me feel safe. I am just in totally disbelief that I was born into your family. I mean. I am the total opposite of you guys. I really don't even belong in this damn family....

my ex best friend...

you made me believe in you, and made me believe that i could trust you.you made me believe that you loved me, and that you would never turn you back on me. I never trusted someone with my while heart, as much as I trusted you. I never let someone in my heart, like i did with you. it took a while, but you worked me, and made me out to be a fool. you are not the person I thought you once were, and the thing is, I can't even blame you, because i should have known better, than to believe that you wouldn't hurt me like that, and believe that this would not come back to bite me in the ***.

Lynn....

You said you'd always be there for me, you said I was your number one babygirl, oh yea, if I am, than how come, you hardly talk to me anymore, even when I call you, and leave a VM practically crying, and telling you, i need you. you just say, you will get back to me when you can, and you never ******* do. if you don't want anything to do with me anymore, than don't, but don't misleed me, and make me believe there is something worth holding on to, when really there isn't..

 

and a small part, is for B tonight. he did hurt me. the talking under his breathe when he walks out a room. talking to A when he KNOWS how much it bothers me. He is talking to her rather than me, and most likely about me. im writing this story, to get it out, not to attack you, but i needed to get it out.

 

 

like i said, this is not to slander anyone, and not to hurt anyone, or attack anyone, but if i don't get some of this **** out, i am going to lose it, and really snap, and do something destructive, and i don't want to do that, so this is me writing. after all i was told to write.

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1 Response Mar 13, 2010

Its okay to vent.<br />
You need to work it all out. And you will. Trust in yourself.<br />
I know from experience how every bad incident brings back all the feelings of injustice and betrayal that we've felt in the past.<br />
Its not easy. But hang in there. You'll be fine.