Strugglin With Desire

I know some of you already know or feel what I have as of late, and Idk if it is a true desire or not. Lately I have felt an urge to be more than a cross dresser, I feel like I want to be a full women, evrything included, I feel it so strongly,but I would never leave my family behind to fufill this desire. That is the dilemma, I wrote this cause I needed this off my chest a lil, advice is appriciated but not why I wrote this. Have a good day/night and thanks for reading.
CDX21 CDX21
26-30, T
6 Responses May 14, 2012

I know how you feel but don't wait too long to follow your dreams. I waited 60 years to transition and now I am too old for SRS, if that is what you have in mind. I do live as a woman full time though, and am happier than I have ever been

OMG. I am glad I am not the only one! Thank you, Ladies! I always look at women the same way. I wish I was as pretty as them! Whenever I get the chance to dress up, I do. But it's rare. I want to go out every day and live my life as a woman. But I have a kid and can't dissapoint him. Gotta be the big, virile man. :(

Your feelings are appearently quite common.As I have felt the same myself. I was even considering herbal hormones.Then my separated wife wanted to come back.

So I ended up purging everything..;-/ Now I'm back into this limbo again.

I keep telling myself if my parents were gone and no kids or wives I would make the leap. But feel I have to be socially correct for the family.

If things don't work out with the wife. I'm too old and not willing to spend the money for full transformation.
I think I could be happy to find a woman to accept and support my feminine side.

I'm struggling with same feelings myself I just what to be myself but not at the cost of the people I love

Me to babe. I wish I was a women everyday but like you could never leave my family behind:( hugs an kisses

Fabulous sweetie<br />
Hugs<br />
Sammi

Thanks. My desire is strong I can't even look at women and not think, I wish that was my body or I wish I could fill those clothes Like that. I'm evnvous of women, maybe too much butu can't deny my feelings.

I too found out that I am not the only one that feels that way. But I know I for one that I do love women so that makes me a non op translesbian.