I was drawn in by your title as it made me think of Edvard Munch's "The Scream." Are you the artist of the work posted? Interesting layout. I have to wonder what lurks in the darkness that appears to be consuming the subject. I swear I see a hand on the shoulder of the subject.
Perhaps you should express your desire to be carried when you need it. Others may have gotten too used to having you take care of them and are blind to your needs. Perhaps they are not able to or even capable of helping you when you need it. If that's the case, you may need to infuse your life with a few extra people who can. It is draining and resentment building to always be the caregiver. Don't allow yourself to get to that point.