I Want To Share My Feelings And Thoughts
Things that i loved doing but i don't do anymore. I used to love looking up at the stars, something about the stars that i like, their just so beautiful. I haven't stared at them since 17/18 years old. I told myself that the next time i stare at them it will be with the person that i will spend the rest of my life with. I always wanted on a cold winter evening, lay down on a hood of a car with my girl, cuddle with a big blanket and just stare at them and chat. To me, this will be a special occasion, i hope that i will get to do this one day.
Another thing i used to do but stopped, this just recently, is every night i would grab some snacks and watch the shows i have on my laptop ("The Office" and "The Big Bang Theory") and eventually get tired and fall asleep during them. I started doing this 'cause i would have a hard time sleeping, i would cry myself to sleep or just thoughts of my past and the hurt i have now kept haunting/bothering me. But lately it hasn't been the same, i lay on my bed watch the shows and laugh alone, i don't have that special someone to cuddle with me and watch, have that special someone to feed me an M&M once or twice and vice versa, have that special someone laugh with me, have that special someone that i can caress and kiss her arm while we slowly fall asleep.
I don't have that and its the reason that i just don't want to do these things anymore. I've chosen to save it. Save it for when that day does come, when i meet that special someone and we do these things. As the days go by i feel less and less confident that i'll find her, losing more and more hope. God knows my heart and I just hope that he will bless me with the one.
Another thing i used to do but stopped, this just recently, is every night i would grab some snacks and watch the shows i have on my laptop ("The Office" and "The Big Bang Theory") and eventually get tired and fall asleep during them. I started doing this 'cause i would have a hard time sleeping, i would cry myself to sleep or just thoughts of my past and the hurt i have now kept haunting/bothering me. But lately it hasn't been the same, i lay on my bed watch the shows and laugh alone, i don't have that special someone to cuddle with me and watch, have that special someone to feed me an M&M once or twice and vice versa, have that special someone laugh with me, have that special someone that i can caress and kiss her arm while we slowly fall asleep.
I don't have that and its the reason that i just don't want to do these things anymore. I've chosen to save it. Save it for when that day does come, when i meet that special someone and we do these things. As the days go by i feel less and less confident that i'll find her, losing more and more hope. God knows my heart and I just hope that he will bless me with the one.
By:
ChrisMM7
Age:
22-25
,
Male
