I Have Never Shared My Feelings And Thoughts
I have never been able to share my feelings and thoughts with other people. In fact I think the only one who I have is my husband. For most of my life I have pretty much kept my feelings and thoughts bottled up inside of me. There is only one place that is my diary where I write what thoughts have been racing through my mind. When I feel I want to unburden myself there is a phone number that I can call which is strictly confidential there is a volunteer person who I can share my feelings and thoughts with.
About month ago I joined a women's group I find I feel too scared to really open up and share my true feelings and thoughts with these women I barely know. Then the last time I went I was able to share with them that I spent amount of time on the inter-net. It was actually how I came across this group that I am in now. but since they now know my secret they will be on my case. I feel so anxious, because of having to share with them how much time I have spent on the inter-net each day. I don't see it as an addiction, but these women do think I am addicted to the inter-net. They seem to be concerned about my well-being in not venturing outside my home, but since I suffer with social anxiety I find it difficult to get out and go where there are people.
What it basically boils down to is being able to trust someone before I can reveal my true feelings and thoughts. All through my life, I have been seriously burnt by people who I had share my feelings with. I imagine that I shared my inner most thoughts and feelings when I barely knew them. I want so much to be able to share my thoughts and feelings with at least one trusting person.