Hey Dad,

Hey dad,

I found out

I don't know whether to cry or shout

how could you?

How could you do this to us?

How could you do this to mom

I'm betrayed and numb and lost and cold

I'm young but I'm old

I'm living a lie

I want to fade and die

I'm burnt inside

I want to run and hide


Hey dad,

I was finally pulling my life back together

before I saw the pictures of you and her

Does she know?

Does she know you're a husband, a father?

Just go. Go **** her

I wish this was a nightmare

I wish someone would care


Hey dad,

 Should I stay quiet and pretend I never saw?

Would that make you happy? Huh

Pretend I never saw the conversations

I don't want the complications

I don't want a broken family or the pain

I don't want my mom to change her last name

I don't want two addresses

I don't want court messes

I don't want to hurt my mother

I don't want to ruin my brother

I don't want to ripe my family apart

I've been stabbed in the heart

Should I confront you and tell you I know?

I know about that stupid hoe.


Hey dad,

Is it all pretend?

All the 'I love you's' you said?

Am I expected to laugh and force a smile

Maybe even tell a lie for a while

How am I going to live with this

How am I suppose to look you in the eyes

When all I see are your lies

I haven't slept or ate since I found out

Has it really been just two days?

I'm not okay

I feel like it's all just a play

I'm torn up inside

I want to run and hide

I want to die


Hey dad, are you happy now?

       I just wanted to get my feelings out. Sorry if it sucked.
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3 Responses May 18, 2012

*hugs*<br />
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Your poem was spectacular and very intense. <br />
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I'm sorry for what you are going through. But, remember this, no matter what happens between your father and your mother, I can tell you as a father, that he loves you and cares for you deeply. A father's love for his daughters is a very very strong thing. You hang in there.<br />
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This. Is. Incredible... The poem I mean. Your dad cheated on your mum? I am so, so, so immensly sorry. (I say this all the time it seems!) I have no idea what to say to you...... Except that you deserve a better life. Sorry if that offened you and sounded really harsh. If it did. Deepest appologies.