oh you mean the experience that made me profoundly feel alienated from boys?

Yeah i woke up the first time it happened to me at 20 in a state of sleep paralysis partially floating over my body as if my "soul" or whatever that was had separated from it and Alien abductors were in the room otherwise known as the MODERN version of the OLD HAG SYNDROME

My Male roommates didn't know how to process it but the women would at least listen.


mine i've been extremely grateful for however because they are SCARY AS **** When they happen but having gone through a few of them over time I feel like this chrysanthemum of clarity has washed over me see I have INTENSELY LONG dreams sometime and some are LONG nightmares but it's been going on for so long now that I feels like i've dreamed longer than I've been alive and When i'm out there I swear to you there's this profound comfort that no matter how bad it gets it will pass.

I've never felt anything like it honestly.

just the certainty of it...

It can hurt like hell sometimes but I just know-it will pass.
ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
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Aug 22, 2014