Well? Do I?

I'm considering sharing my beautiful wife with another man. I also wonder why the idea turns me on so much. She's about five years younger than me, keeps fit and has a great figure. People are absolutely stunned when they find out her age because she looks so young. Her 34C breasts hardly sag at all and have good, medium sized dark brown nipples. Her *** and legs are very beautifully shaped. She has a very pretty face with captivating, dark eyes surrounded by long, black hair. She has a fiery temperament which offsets my, more laid-back nature.

I've always been very sexually oriented from a very young age but always tried to abstain from anything "nasty" or "dirty" due to my religious upbringing. We saved ourselves for each other but succumbed to temptation little by little and had awkward sexual experiences before getting married. We found later that she was actually pregnant before we married. Over the years we've loosened up a little and become more comfortable discussing sexual matters. She divulged to me that she wished I had had more experience so that our first time together would have been a more special experience.

Later, she cheated on me with two other men. I found out and our marriage nearly ended. We separated for a while but were eventually drawn back together by our love and the care of our children. When we were able to discuss what happened I found that one of the main reasons was that she was curious to see what sex was like with a man who had a large penis. My penis is quite small and, while I can always get her off, she is unsatisfied. She says it doesn't matter anymore but I fear that, given the opportunity, she may cheat again. I know she loves me. I also love her and I don't want to go through that again, ever! Perhaps as a kind of revenge, I cheated on her with a woman I met on the internet. It was very exciting for me to be with another woman. I was only with her twice and then we never got together after that. I eventually told my wife about it. I think it helped her feelings of guilt to know that I was not the saint she thought I was.

So, one day while out at a restaurant, I let slip that I regretted not being able to satisfy her fully and that I would like to see her satisfied. I was very vague about it but she knew I meant watching her with another man. I could tell that the idea intrigued and excited her. Since then I have repeatedly thought about it and sometimes the idea turns me on and sometimes it scares me. I fear that it may change our relationship. I wonder if afterwards she might not respect me as a man. A few months later she mentioned that she had a dream where she was with another man and I was watching. She said, "That's weird, right?" I replied that, yes, that it was weird. But later at a hotel on Valentine's day we talked about it more fully. We had just had a fight but made up. I was admiring her beautiful body and mentioned that I didn't want another man to touch her body ever and that I wouldn't be with another woman. She agreed but finished with, "Unless we give each other permission." I could tell she was thinking about having a large **** in her *****. We talked a little about how that would be, hypothetically, and I told her I would enjoy getting her hot body ready for him and I could tell she loved the idea! After that, we had a session of incredible sex! She was much more responsive than normal and I really enjoyed it.

I wouldn't want her to be able to have a relationship with another man, just sex. I don't want it to be with anyone she knows. I want to control her access to sex outside of our marriage and have considered blindfolding her and preparing her hot body for a lover's large ****. After securing her blindfold I would slowly ***** her clothes off, leaving her bra and panties for him to remove. I would kiss her deeply and touch her everywhere. Then I would give her to him and watch her be satisfied in a way that I cannot hope to duplicate. I imagine her trembling with pleasure and screaming for more as he begins teasing her. I imagine him removing her bra and touching and kissing her beautiful breasts. He will slowly go down on her and give her an incredible ****** with his tongue. Then he will tease her ***** with his engorged penis and get her really wet. When he finally enters her femininity I imagine that she'll be in an amazing state of pleasure, crying out and squirming like crazy. Perhaps I would record some of the encounter on video so that we could watch it together later.

I'm sure I'll have mixed feelings about it and I'm not sure how to begin looking for the right man. I'd like him to be younger, fit and well hung. I also want him to be a gentleman and respectful of our marriage and relationship. I want him to be just as rough as she pleases but no more.

God, I love her so much!