Alone

Right now it's all I can do to get out of bed and go to work. I broke up with my bf and things were very serious betwen us. We were looking at apartments and everything. Well I started getting sick (still waiting to see exactly what is wrong) and stress was a huge factor. Well when I needed his support the most he just left. He actually tried to say it would be better for me that way. Truth be told we had a few little issues anyway and this was just his coward way out instead of just saying what he really meant. There was a time we were so in love. I have a passion life though and he didn't that was a big diffrence that we couldn't really find a compromise to.

So, now I'm going through all hospital visits and tests, etc. and now I have to do it on my own. I have my mom and sister. I am VERY fortunate for that. They are amazing! It's just different.

All I want to do is just lock myself in my dark room for a while and just pretend it was all a bad dream. Obviously I can't though. I have some good friends that make me get out for a while on th weekend. I'm not motivated on my own right now and don't really care what i do. So, luckily they take me out in the world and show me (try at least, lol) that not all men are lying bastards that leave you when you need them the most.

For those of you who actually read this thank you for listening to me ramble :-)

GirlLearningHowToSmile GirlLearningHowToSmile
26-30, F
3 Responses Mar 8, 2009

You're right, there's no good time to say goodbye. And I am very fortunate to have my loved ones there for me. Thank you for your encouraging words.<br />
And like lespaulmarK said, it's his loss.

It's so hard to handle a breakup, especially in a time of stress and bad health. I'm sorry he left at such a bad time, but then, as they say, there's never a right time to say goodbye. It seems like you're coping in healthy ways though, and your loved ones are helping. :)

i no what you mean it sounds like his loss .