Wouldn't It Be Nice?

just to go to sleep is such a treat ... if i can find that state. 

i have RSD which is a chronic pain condition due to neurological trauma.  the pain keeps me awake for days on end.  sleeping is the only way i'm not consciously aware of the pain and thus, it's SWEET!  when i do finally get to that 'state' i stay there as long as humanly possible!  this is the only way i escape pain.  the sleep may not be restful but at least i'm not aware of the pain.

despite all that ... i'd love more than anything to just go to sleep whether it be a coma or whatever.  not only do i physically need the sleep ... i certainly could use the mental rest from everything else.  but then again ... who couldn't?  we all have our fair share of problems.

AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
31-35, F
Jun 21, 2007