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Because My Life Is Destroyed

I don't know really where to begin.  My life has been in shambles since I was 18 and I don't see how its ever going to change.  There is no light at the end of the tunnel for me. 
When I was 18 years old (young and dumb) I was convicted of a felony theft.   This single criminal act has completely ruined my life.  I did not go to jail but I may of well had.  People make mistakes especially young people.  I am not suggesting that there shouldn't be any consequences for your actions.  But, a life time of barriers and restraints is far too much.  It has been over 15 years and I still face the same collateral consequences for a felony conviction.  I cannot obtain employment and descent housing. If I cannot find a job how am I to survive.  Yeah I can work at burger king (maybe) but who is that going to support. That won't support my family I am a mother of 3 children and I do not receive a penny in child support.  I went to college to further my education only to find out that once I am done with college I cannot obtain a license in my major no matter how far up the educational latter I go.  I am stuck with the
"mark of Cain."  It is depressing I have contemplated committing suicide several times.  If it were not for my children and my concern for their well being than I probably would of done it by now.  But, then again they may do well with out me, at least they'll live better not povern because of mommies mistake.   I wish I could start a new life...But there is no such thing for me the "mark of Cain" will forever find me...
wasigirl wasigirl 31-35, F 125 Responses Oct 20, 2010

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thats sad and yes going thru the same thing plus im on probation i have four kids and the last one i had i did adoption because i knew with this felonie all im guranteed is a life of struggle until i can get my **** sealed but i do what i have to do most jobs i hate an thur low paying even ****** fast food jobs no longer take felons, i respect you an just know that yea were struggling now bhu are kids our top priority always we struggle for them an think about are selfs later... are were never gonna make it and they will end up going down the same busted road and we dont want that right, but i dont know you i just thought id leave a response since were going thru the same things lol were still badass moms... dont let the justice system take that from you lol sorry i blabbed so long . ..

Where are you today? Have things turned around for you? I am in a similar situation though i do not have my youth to blame, instead I made a poor choice to help eleviate the financial burden of my mental health care for my son who is an an unisured adult and was struggling with depression, suicide and addiction.

I too feel the despair. I know i am not a bad person and can do something better but opportunity is limited once you have a felony.

I am praying you are in a better situation now.

You might possibly be able to get your court records sealed. I believe that might allow you to stop telling potential employers about the felony. It might be worth looking into. Expunged records may be possible, but a felony might rule that out. The one silver lining in this cloud is that 15 years ago, the Internet wasn't as pervasive as it is now. People may not be able to simply Google your name and discover your entire history through newspaper clippings.

Do look into expunging and sealing in your state. It might help a lot.

Your post brought me to this site via Google by searching situations likening my own, so I went ahead and created an account. Has opening up on this site helped to any extent with your depression?

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