I Want To Fall In Love AgainOkay, here it is. I need help. I've gotten help before. But this time I'm seriously of need of something. I'm lost. I keep finding myself right back where I started.
I wake up every morning, praying for something to give. Anything.. I ask God, can I have a good day today? Just one is all I want. I want to start over. I want drive so far away that no one will ever know me. I want to meet new people. I want to fall in love again... Anything.
For awhile I was happy. Then one day I feel into the depression again. Now I look at everything that is wrong with my life, and the truth is, it all comes down to one thing.
I love him. And I just want him to tell me he loves me back. I just want to hear him say my name again, I made a lot of mistakes.. But seeing him with her kills me everytime. Its like he's taking a knife, stabbing it in my heart and saying "I never loved you" How could this be possible. I expected so much out of him. I wanted so much from him.
I never thought he'd be here just to watch me bleed.
I want to know love away from him. I want to start a life with someone new, Someone who won't make me feel like I lost everything I ever had.
RoseDawson 18-21, F 6 Responses 0 Dec 13, 2010