Born In The Abyss Of Naked Poverty, Lived A Full Life, Made Mistakes And I'm Now Back To The AbyssI grew up in utter poverty and abuse, I am a survivor an ESTP (Myers Briggs). I'm not sure how things got so out of control but a black cloud of bad luck since my mother died back in 2006 has followed me. My life hasn't had any luck since. My positives: I provided all I could for my family, I worked hard, I am optimistic, I always felt I had to take others burdens as to be a man, I was successful, I would always work to correct my wrongs, I take criticism, I was adaptable. The bad!! I was a fool, I shoot from the hip, I take to many chances, I have anxiety, I have doubts, I did not show the attention to my family that I should have. I now have lost my wife, my job, my home, my finiancial security. I am a man facing poverty, shame, and homelessness, survival is become my only concern. I feel lost and my life going down the drain. I'm 47 and I will try to keep fighting to build my life back. I have always tried to make it on my own and without much help. I am at a point in my life I wish I had someone to carry me for just awhile so I could have my life back. When a son loses his mother that was always their for him and gave him strengh and then she is gone all I can say is: Mom! when you said I would miss you when you were gone! You were my rock and foundation and Mom! You were right! This is the worst time in my life but I will try to start over and I will do it alone.
jonathanpepper 46-50, M 5 Responses 0 Dec 13, 2010