I'm Not Really Living.. I'm Just HereI hate my life. I'm 22 years old, I have no job, no car, I'm always broke. I don't even have my license, I almost died in a car accident when I was 16 and my boyfriend at the time did die. Ever since then driving has really scared me, I've drove plenty of times but I am always so terrified whenever I did drive. I know at my age I should have a job, be in college, have a car, and go out and do stuff with my friends. Like every other 22 year old my age. Before the car accident, neither one of my parents ever offered to teach me how to drive. I'm angry at them for that. Everybody else I know had their license at 16, their parents tough them how to drive.
I was convicted of two felonies when I was 20, which put me on probation for 3 years (I have two more yrs left on it). Now I feel even worse because I don't have a job so I can't pay the fees that I owe which means my parents have to. I can't even get a job, I have no transportation. My dad recently found a girl friend and now he lives with her, we barely ever talk or see each other. I am so angry at him, i feel like my whole life he never wanted me to grow up, now that he found a woman he wants me to move out of state because him and his girl friend are moving somewhere. So now he's trying to get rid of me, after all these years of him promising to help me get my license and get a job and not doing ****. He never wanted me to have a life, I guess because he was so lonely and was scared of me moving out and leaving him by himself. Now he wants me gone, and he keeps saying "well you're 22 you're an adult" and I just want to scream " Yeah well you ******* never wanted me to grow up, you never helped me do anything like normal parents are supposed to do"
I can move in with my mom, which is really far away from where I'm at now. I have a guaranteed job when I get up there, and she will help me get my license. The only thing is I can't go for another 16 weeks due to some classes I have for probation. So I feel upset.. I have to wait 16 weeks before I can actually move and have a life. I'm also terrified of moving somewhere new but it has to be better than the life I live now. I'm tired of always being at home and never having money.
sillyginger 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 Jun 10, 2011