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I Want To Start A New Life

   have already started my new life, and i want to make it my happily ever after life, mine will come when i get my dream house which i love. After all the pain of Losing alot of family who passed away in such a short time, i'm still dealing with not being able to call or hold them. One's Who left me alone to deal with before my Dad's death and the after when it was just me and my boyfriend who help me taking g8 care of him. I thank god that i have a g8 B.f and wonderful cousin's who's helping me with alot, i do have a sister but she live in Oklahoma, and she have alot of problem with her and her son. I have a bother who raped me when i was young, he is two years older then me, he had two friend's that attack me and they rape me severely. All of them ruined my life, in a way i died around that time when they stole my innocences. My brother did alot to me over the year's like telling me what clothes to ware how to behave and alot more stuff and i still forgave him and his friend's, and stephen didn't care at all, there was one who said sorry. I have only wanted a brother who would love and care about me, now i know he will never be anykind of brother to me cause he is evil and i really belive it on what  he has pulled on my Dad, me and Pat my b.f. and my sister and her 3 year old Artisma son, Stephen  nephew     Stephen use to have power of Attorney as before long he abused that and the last straw was when he told that g8 place we had to put him in which my Dad loved.Before that  my dad was at home and just me and Pat was taking care of him, He never sent a card for anything and just drop by for a visit none. He only got involved becuse dad had to go to the hospital and my Dad forgot to take him off, everyday i ask my Dad if he wanted for me to call Stephen, everyday was a big no so when my dad was in the hospital and stephen got involved he told the place where my dad was in telling us we can't see or got infro on him. his own Daughter we where ripped apart from my Dad. I cryed alot and that's when my Dad wanted Stephen off so we did it and we got him off of everything. I lost my childhood home which is a good and bad feeling, But thanks to my Dad i can now have a whole new life, and it would be my very first home. which is House that would be my dream 4 my sister and her son and me and  Pat all of us will be in our home, Since we have no parents anymore i feel like it's my duty to take care of them.Cause it has everything we want.. I prayer to God that we can get it!!!
P.S. When i was young and with all of the bad stuff i was going through, i use to be a cutter, It was the only peace i could find, cause talking didn't help me and tryed to hurt myself was all i had that worked. Cutter's was my addiction. I promise my mom i would stop, and when she died i stopped for along time, it was very hard to control it intill my Daddy died and i lost it, because i couldn't deal with stephen crap we had a deal to have two service and i kept my deal and let him brorrow alot of Picture's and my Dad's awards and Pins, he rip off my own 3 Album's that was off limits he was told that stay with me cause it belong to me.He pays me back by ruining my day and my plans for what my Dad wanted.He didn't care that he ruin miy dad's wishes.
It was all about what he wants. 

IF YOU EVER WANT TO VENT, I'M WILL BE THERE IF YOU NEED ME.I'M A GOOD LISTENER AND A BETTER FRIEND!
sweetangel6472002 sweetangel6472002 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2011

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