Now, most people here know that I've had a tough life ...but that is "not" why I am writing today. I am writing because I've come to realize that the hurtful past that I come from ....sometimes "jades" my current life. I start new experiences, only to put up defenses that really have no business being in the new experience.
Recently, I met up with an old friend of mine who I have not seen in a long time. And that friend said "howzit, how you doing?" ....like a brand new day. And how do I react? By dredging up "who still owes who" and "who still needs to apologize to who". The friend looked down with a "depressed" look ...then excused out of the situation.
That is when I realized, that deep down ...."I still hurt".
I could sure use a lot of prayers. To help let go of a lot of I guess ...."baggage". To let go that people in my past did things ...because at the time it was what they thought was the right thing to do. To let go that people in my past did their level best, to patch things up in the aftermath ....and tried to move on. And to accept that now, that it's "my turn".
It is time. To answer "howzit, how you doing?" ....with "been ok been ok, what's new with you?". And answer a brand new sunny day ....with "a brand new sunny day".