The Nomad Life - Soon To Be My Reality

For many years now I have been merely existing in and not truly living my life. Except for the past week, for my whole 31 years of life I've lived in the same city, existing in the daily grind with an ever increasing sensation of acute depression, dissatisfaction and boredom, trapped by the system and by emotional bonds and never facing my fears.

A week ago an opportunity was opened to escape to somewhere different, and I just took the plunge and after only telling my mother, my best friend and my brother, I moved to a small town that is interstate and 5 hours away from 'home' to live temporarily with my cousin while I consider my options and re-evaluate my life and what I want to do with it. In this week I've realised that I really don't want to settle down again, only to participate in the daily grind in another place, that thought is so dissatisfying. So the decision has been made to live a vagabond/travellers life, to explore and work my way around my beautiful and massive country of Australia.

Deep down I've always desired this lifestyle but was always too scared to take the plunge and just do it. Fear IS the mind killer and has been holding me back for years from achieving this dream or even just attempting it...fear and other people (loved ones) who try and discourage a nomadic life. But now, the time has come, it's now or never! It saddens me that at 31 I still don't truly know who I am and what I am made of, any wonder I was so depressed and dissatisfied. In the past week since I moved I've found that my depression has lifted and a world of wonder, opportunity and excitement has opened up, my life is mine again and I can go where I want and do what I want (respecting the law of course!).

So at this stage of life I plan on leaving in approximately a month with thumb out and no expectations. I need this month of time to research, to mentally prepare and to find my first destination. Thank God for the internet!

If any of you has undertaken such a dramatic life change your hints or suggestions are most welcome!
Mercvry Mercvry
31-35, M
May 6, 2012