Why Did They Abuse And Neglect Me?

I am 15 years old and have ADD, ADHD, and am slightly Bipolar. I was abused, neglected, and while my mother was pregnant with me she smoked and did drugs. ALthough at the age of 18 months CPS took me to a foster home which became my adoptive home when i was four i have never recovered from it. My family is great and i have 6 siblings and i love them all alot.
But because of my abuse i don't trust very well and I am always misbehaving. And don't think that i try to misbehave, because i don't. I just don't have a concience or something. Becuase when i am about to do something bad like steal or something, i don't get that warning bell in my head telling me not to do it because it's wrong.
Another problem is even though i want to feel guilty and sorry for what i have done, i don't. I don't know why. I have had a bad childhood and time is running out for me to fix things before i'm out on my own in the world. Please give me some advice. Thanks.
jamiebarfield jamiebarfield
13-15, F
1 Response Dec 11, 2012

Please dont tell me you abuse animals then I would feel no sympathy for you!