I Am Co-dependant of Someone Who Could Care Less About Me!

I need so much from someone in my life just to make through each day, yet he could care less.  I know I should move on, he has told me too many times to...but I find it impossible to make it through one day without him...and on top of that ...WE ARE JUST FRIENDS in his mind.  How does someone you are just friends with tell you to move on...move on from what?  Damnit and now he went on a cruise...and I am here alone.  Dying...going crazy...wanting to just let go of my sanity and lose everything in myself.  i feel like i am not even breathing...suffercating in his absence...dying without him, yet he is not even thinking once about me...not fair.

OceanicDebris OceanicDebris
31-35, F
3 Responses Mar 23, 2009

do not depend on others to make you happy...don't take in the negative....stay positive no matter what else you hear...you are worthy...repeat that ten times

No i don't want you to feel sorry for me. It was just a recording of a few thoughts in my head that i wanted to put on paper. Thank you for trying to steer me in a direction that you feel is better than the one that i am currently living, but i am not religious nor really spiritual. But thank you. I don't find what you say as cold. I unfortunately am having a tough time trying to change my co-dependancy. I will though. I know im strong enough!

You understand that you are co-dependent, so why do you choose to continue to be? Do you want me to feel sorry for you? I don't want to be cold, but your comments make me mad because I used to be in your place, suffering for some jerk who is not worth it. God showed me that He will fulfill me like nobody ever will, and he will never leave me. Attend a good church, meet wonderful people there, serve others, stop wasting your time. Even better, Visit CelebrateRecovery.com. Don't give up. God loves you.