I Want to Stop Drinking Alcohol
Hi people I'mjust new to this site and thought I would share what I'm going through at the moment.
Well Alcohol has always been apart of my life from as young as I can remember my father and grandfather always drinking on weekend when they were fixing things in the shed, mowing the lawns or just sitting inside at the table.
Both my grandfathers were alcoholics and my father I guess you could have called him one as well a few years back so let's say it runs pretty thick in the family.
I started drinking at 15 years old the odd small glass with dad late afternoon early evening and doing the same things mowing lawns, fixing things just any excuse I guess to have a few beers.
When I was 16 I started hitting it pretty hard Friday nights would lead into Saturday nights and follow it up with a good Sunday session then off to work on Monday feeling like ****.
I kept this going for some 3 years and as it turned out once I left home and went flating things got worse, We would start the weekend on a Wednesday night and same again go through until late Sunday afternoon.
At the same time living week to week not paying bills off so I could spend more out on the **** on the weekends.
As I was getting older I starting noticing changes in myself, putting on weight less torrelrent of people and shyed away from family outings just so I could go drinking with my mates.
Once I hit 20 years old I could no longer drink the amount I could at age 17 but that did not stop me from so I was wipeing myself out even worse and the hangovers would last a few days and I would always say NEVER AGAIN but then the next weekend rolled around and I forgot what I said the last Sunday as I lay in bed with a massive hangover.
At about this age I meet my wife to be, we started living together first as friends but things moved pretty quickly into a relationship.
We had a fantastic social life I don't think we had nothing to do on weekends for close to a year there was always something going on/ partys,house warming, BBQ just any thing that involved drinking we were there.
Once we found out we we having a baby my wife gave up the drinking straight away, no second thoughts at all she is very strong minded and I wish I was half as strong as her.
Anyway as the pregnancy progress we would start having arguments about the amount I was drinking and was it fair on her cause she could not drink, how I could no longer handle the drink, I would wake in the middle of the night drunk and try go to the toilet but end up weeing in the clothes dryer, on some in door plants or just the wall inside our bedroom.
The next day she would ask if I rememberd what I had done and straight out I had no idea I was doing this stuff. I would feel ashamed for a day or two then pretty much forget until it happened again, then go through the same cycle....Sorry love I don't mean it it won't happen again etc..
Anyway after two more children and the same stuff happening on a weekly basis Imhave come to the point in my life that I need to change , not only for myself but firstly my children cause I don't want them to go up and say "Oh dads drinking again look out" and then they go through the same cycle as I have done.
It will also have a positive impact on my marrage cause it's been the main sticking point this whole time we've been together and I'm not prepared to through all I have away for the drink.
So I know it's a long road ahead but I'm confident of getting througn it.
Cheers 2Pie
Well Alcohol has always been apart of my life from as young as I can remember my father and grandfather always drinking on weekend when they were fixing things in the shed, mowing the lawns or just sitting inside at the table.
Both my grandfathers were alcoholics and my father I guess you could have called him one as well a few years back so let's say it runs pretty thick in the family.
I started drinking at 15 years old the odd small glass with dad late afternoon early evening and doing the same things mowing lawns, fixing things just any excuse I guess to have a few beers.
When I was 16 I started hitting it pretty hard Friday nights would lead into Saturday nights and follow it up with a good Sunday session then off to work on Monday feeling like ****.
I kept this going for some 3 years and as it turned out once I left home and went flating things got worse, We would start the weekend on a Wednesday night and same again go through until late Sunday afternoon.
At the same time living week to week not paying bills off so I could spend more out on the **** on the weekends.
As I was getting older I starting noticing changes in myself, putting on weight less torrelrent of people and shyed away from family outings just so I could go drinking with my mates.
Once I hit 20 years old I could no longer drink the amount I could at age 17 but that did not stop me from so I was wipeing myself out even worse and the hangovers would last a few days and I would always say NEVER AGAIN but then the next weekend rolled around and I forgot what I said the last Sunday as I lay in bed with a massive hangover.
At about this age I meet my wife to be, we started living together first as friends but things moved pretty quickly into a relationship.
We had a fantastic social life I don't think we had nothing to do on weekends for close to a year there was always something going on/ partys,house warming, BBQ just any thing that involved drinking we were there.
Once we found out we we having a baby my wife gave up the drinking straight away, no second thoughts at all she is very strong minded and I wish I was half as strong as her.
Anyway as the pregnancy progress we would start having arguments about the amount I was drinking and was it fair on her cause she could not drink, how I could no longer handle the drink, I would wake in the middle of the night drunk and try go to the toilet but end up weeing in the clothes dryer, on some in door plants or just the wall inside our bedroom.
The next day she would ask if I rememberd what I had done and straight out I had no idea I was doing this stuff. I would feel ashamed for a day or two then pretty much forget until it happened again, then go through the same cycle....Sorry love I don't mean it it won't happen again etc..
Anyway after two more children and the same stuff happening on a weekly basis Imhave come to the point in my life that I need to change , not only for myself but firstly my children cause I don't want them to go up and say "Oh dads drinking again look out" and then they go through the same cycle as I have done.
It will also have a positive impact on my marrage cause it's been the main sticking point this whole time we've been together and I'm not prepared to through all I have away for the drink.
So I know it's a long road ahead but I'm confident of getting througn it.
Cheers 2Pie
By:
2pie
Age:
31-35
,
Male
