Going To Attend My First Aa Meeting

I have decided that drinking is ruining my life and I want to stop but I am afraid. I worry about the cravings. I have fallen an number of times and I don't want this to happen again.
I didn't realize how much I drank last night and I fell out of bed and woke up with huge bruises on my arms and legs. I am scared. I can't go on like this but I have enjoyed drinking wine and the thought of never having a glass of wine upsets me. I hope I can get the help I need from the AA meetings.
AmeliaJM AmeliaJM
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3 Responses Sep 13, 2012

Hi Amelia,

I hope your first meeting went well, and you are still doing well. It's a brave thing you are doing, and I hope you remember to tell yourself that. I too went to my first meeting in September(24th) and I am so amazed at how nice the people are. I hope you have found a good group in your area with supportive people. I am learning what it means to reach out and that it's okay--that I don't have to do everything on my own.

My father was an alcoholic, so I was careful not to let myself slip into the habit/acquire the addiction for most of my life. Then I got to the point where I enjoyed drinking, so I was careful to keep a handle on it, so I would never have to give it up. It was easy for a long time, but somehow it slipped up on me. That's my long winded way of saying I understand what you mean when you say you enjoy wine and don't want to have to give it up. It might not be easy. It might be easier than you think. I don't know, but I do know the only way to find out is to try, and I know we'll both be better off for it.

The only thing I can say is for me, the kind people at the meetings have made my horrible experience more bearable. I hope you find peace and freedom on your journey.

Good luck

You will need really strong will power. Only you can do it. See it like this, you attend AA meetings, you stop drinking for a while ... then you stop attending AA meetings thinking you left the habit and start drinking again. Here is where your will power will come into play. It is better for you to take control of your urges and life before you seriously get hurt. Trust me I have been there.

I attended my first AA meeting last week and it was the best thing i have done in a very long time.. everyone was so amazing and nice and welcoming..their stories amazed me and i didn't feel out of place once. i hope you enjoy it as much as i do..

I had the same experience Rachel. It was so much more awesome than I thought it would be. I can't remember the last time I was around so many genuinely nice and caring individuals. I hope you're doing well! Oh, My first meeting was the 24th--yea us!!!