Day 10, The Reason Why I Went Down, And Because I Got Up.

One of the most cruel sides of bad things in life, like alcohol, is the inexplicable combination with lifestyles. Luckily a lot of people think with their own brain. Examples are drug with music, coffee with study, and, as in my life, beer with sport.

Sport is one of the things I love the most, it made me win, it made me suffer, it made me live pain like it is nothing in comparison to the desire to win, beat others, and beat myself, pushing me over the limit. Being in hospital for 3 shoulder surgeries and every time happy and conscious I was going to play rugby again. I did, after months of physiotherapy. But not last time, I didn't make it. I couldn't move for 2 years, I couldn't sleep face down, I couldn't run, I was stuck. That was the crack in my life, and there I lost the girl I loved, my grandfather died, and then.. the earthquake...all in 4 months.
I didn't realize I started drinking in a different way, with different approach to alcohol. Anyway study was going good, but I was alone, I was just living my life, trying to get up and learn how to be proud of myself. I learned to read music, to play music, but there was that lack...something missing, I know it was the sport thing, so I started physiotherapy again, and I learned a way to be physically better. Now I run, I keep doing physiotherapy and I do extreme sports.
Last year only the beer remained as a problem, it is not a alcohol addiction problem but i know it brings me down, it was a problem when few years ago it made me do weird things but that's a normal young guy behavior, bad.. but normal, last year I had to stop drinking too much beer.
Now I am happy about myself, thanks to sport, I love the way it makes me feel. Living life is my reason not to drink.
CrookedMat CrookedMat
26-30, M
Jan 15, 2013