I Was The Living Dead

I've never come across anyone that was as messed up as me. I had a deep hole that i could never fill up. Alcohol turned me into a demon a callous ***** and it destroyed my life. Not in a million years could i have seen this happening to me. I became addicted. I would pass out every night and awake puking my guts out and violently shaking. I was terrified of anyone finding out. I hid my secret for years. It was such hard work being a drunk. Hiding beer in my drawers, my car,lying constantly it sickens me. I drove around drunk, worked in a bar drunk. First thing when i woke up i had to have a drink. I lost all my good feelings i was the living dead. I know exactly what heell on earth is. If i can help anyone please ask