The Substance That Owned Me

I could never have imagined as a young girl the horror that was to become my life. How alcohol would own me, consume my life and destroy me. The lengths i would go to to conseal my sickness and obtain my poison showed no mercy. You don't even see it intil its too late. What people need to realize is we are not like you normal people. Something is missing from us. We feel empty inside. We have this emptyness inside that alcohol just magicly takes away. It works great for awhile taking away anxiety, fears, sadness but just like every other demon...it doesn't last. And by that point its got ya. There is one sure way to tell if your in deep. Doesn't matter if your religious or not you will be if you can survive this form of hell. Remember this rule. To get better you must know what your up against. You didn't get this way over night so it will take sometime to get rid of this demon.hell goes in circles and it Never makes any sense. You keeping drinking and causing pain and damage over and over.your sick everyday yet you still keep drinking. Lose your job, get a dui and yet you still keep drinking. It steals every ounce of energy yet you still drink it. The thought of simple pleasures like watching a movie or going for dinner aren't possible unless your friend jack daniels comes. Go to a bar straight and look at a drunk person they look like a retarded fool. Now ask yourself. Does it make any sense at all after all that you would still drink? I did. Tbc