Fruitless Talk

At this dive
I swear I would stay away
But here I sit
My shame I won’t give away

The secret love
I had is gone
Has her life
And carried on

Still alone
Writing crap on scraps
Meaningless thoughts
Suicide App’s

Wasting time
And money away
Finding no joy
In anything I do or say

Years and years
I write this ****
Like it means anything
No one will ever read it