I Hate Being Fat

All of my life, I've been overweight. I was bullied really badly in Middle School and then when I got into Highschool, I developed an eating disorder. At first, I didn't even consider it an eating disorder but then I realized that I wasn't eating even when I was starving. My obsession with being thin has always been around and this is the first time I've ever acted upon it. I want to be thin. Not like those stick skinny models but just thin enough to get rid of my insecurities. I don't want advice from people, I just want to be able to express myself and be who I want to be. Sometimes I think about giving up on anorexia but then I remember how far I've come. I want to feel beautiful the way I am I just wish it wasn't so hard.
It scares me to think that anorexia can be life threatening. I was always the one telling my friends they should eat because it can effect your health but here I am, starving myself. All I ate today was yogurt and crackers. it sucks really bad. I was so mean to my family because I'm hungry and unhappy. It's so frustrating because I know how much worse this can get but I don't want to stop until I'm perfect.
danixo97 danixo97
18-21
1 Response May 4, 2012

message me. im here for you.
-post-anorexic