What Have I Got Left?!

So, I've had a pretty hard time lately (yep, the usual story starter). I have not long started at college, without knowing anyone so I'm missing my best friend hugely. I might aswell say that my mum has some mental ''issues'' but can't be treated until she's dangerous, and my dad only cares about her and my younger brother. Also, I'm in a long distance relationship, but we're always arguing and it;s just not the same anymore. I can't talk to him anymore because he just doesn't care and can't be here for me, so I've got 2more jobs to get enough money to see him as much as i can. Tonight i asked if i could go see him next weekend, but he doesn;t want to see me, and i'm pretty sure earlier he said he never wanted to. I know people say you dont know what love is at this age, but i'm pretty sure i do, i have never felt like this, and i feel like i can't handle being without him. I would normally turn to this best friend of mine but noo, she's got a whole new set of friends at her new college and doesn;t even say hi to me anymore. I just feel lonely and like i have nobody.