Edge Of Suicide

Hi, my name is Michelle. I'm fourteen years old. I don't drink, don't do drugs, straight A student; my life used to be okay. I live with my mom and three little brothers. Since they were born I never really got too much attention from my mom. For the last few years, my life was great. I had a million friends, I did sports, I was captain or president of almost every extra curricular, but this year was rough. Really rough. My dad died a couple years back and something changed in my mom. She wasn't sad or anything, but she had this temper, then I realized and I did too. I get mad over the littlest things and I don't mean too. Our fights have been getting worse and worse. At least twice a month she would fight with me. She'd kick me out of the house and I'd be on the streets for at least three days. She'd tear apart my room and she would slap me or scratch me. Once, she gave me a bloody nose. Today she cut me and slapped me so hard. My older brother once attacked me, he left me unconscious for two hours and I ran away for a week. Since then I was left vulnerable and afraid of everything. Lately I've been really depressed. I always feel alone and I never talk to anyone at school. I started failing and no one else seems to pay attention to me anymore, so they don't suspect anything. I've been getting migraines a lot and I'm scared. I want to kill myself. I don't think anyone will notice anyway. I don't know what to do anymore.I'm crying just thinking about this. I'm afraid if I tell someone they'll think I just want attention. So I don't tell anyone.
troubled1daughter troubled1daughter
Jan 6, 2013