My Childhood

I am a 17 year old girl and the eldest of three kids. My story starts when I was around 3 years old. I found this out later but at the time my dad cheated on my mom. His betrayal along with her violent childhood put her in a very unbalanced mental state. She fell into a depression and started to take out all of her anger out on me. Her harsh treatment towards me lasted for several years. She was eventually cured and is now a completely different person. I love my mom and up until recently I thought I had a very strong bond with her. The problem is that now I have started to distance myself from her because of what happened all those years ago. This never seemed to bother me but now its like all of those suppressed memories have come out. I am just so angry with her and I hate the way she treated me. She knows my treatment towards her has changed but I haven't told her why. I just don't understand why this never affected me until now. I think I have forgiven her but I just can't seem to let go of my anger and resentment towards her.I am just so confused right now.
Brissy17 Brissy17
Jan 14, 2013