“What was happened in past was everything wrong”
“What is happening in present is not good”
“What will happen in future will be very terrible?”
- These are the things that I got/getting in my life .
- I can not act like an ordinary people as all the mistress happened in my life made me speak less and I lost all my energy whatever I had a little, and I am murmuring
Now with this world daily activities and sitting with a confused mind without knowing how to go forward and for what purpose.
Now I have one son in my hand, and I do not know what can I do for him , as I have failed in my daughters life I can not have the capability to tell something for him.
And what is the use, if everything is happening as desired by god and whom I fool
To think that I can do something by which I am loosing everything.
No I do not have the strength and I do not take this life as that there is no my daughter and living silently by seeing others and as a failed woman in front of all of them.
No I do not face this world again, where there is no nothing for me. I can not fool myself again and again. It is better to leave all the things and go silently
Where there will be nobody who does not know mine.
I am the biggest fool who believed that we can do something and catch the life as other people are living but everything is wrong, this is not our hand,
We can not blame those people who did not cared ours and who already having enough for them, I am the third person in this world who was punished by god
And he himself doing all the things where I will go,
And for that I can not sit here by seeing him what other drama he is having for me and of course I do not have that strength to see all the bad things,
This is my situation and after repeating all I am coming to think the following
About my husband – of course I crossed that stage to worry about him
About my daughter – I can not accept this easily as this is full of mine.
About my entire problems – to find the way to solve the debits/ assets
About my son – now he is the big question for me see I can not believe him for my life time as I know I will definitely become a Burdon and waste thing for his life.
I want to go away, but who will make him life and I do not have that strength to make him life and there is nobody to take care of him as usual.
And after all this at present there is no way to choose for me immediately and I have to keep quite for some time.
How long this all goes, is there is possibility to live me here by having all these in my mind.
How this will be solved and the god o he is a pastert according to me and he never
Show a good way, but will make more difficulties, which I can not bear
I am sure of this 100%, because his name is god dog god dog god dog
And I am now here by thinking all these and I have to spend one year
To get out of all these problems and
See after doing all what I can do everything is becoming waste at last,
So I have decided to live like a stone and look forward by simply seeing the drama what are happening. I do not have the luck to live with my husband and now I do not have the luck to see my daughter by living her life happily and after this 40 years I can not have the same strength to cry a lot and stand again with some strength but I do not want to die simply by accepting the fails because these are happening as god’s wish who is the master planner of this all and I can not go across his way and do not want to blame or praise him because he is deaf and I do not care who does not care about me, this is my wish what else I can do see the life is a game for all human beings and my life is a game for god who can play anything whatever he wants because there is nobody to ask him. And I do not want to disturb him and let him to do what he likes at the end I also die other than this he can not give me more punishment this is the end for him to stop all this nonsense to make in my life , if he wants to make me to be mad or a begger or something else in the rest of my life,
Let him do it, I do not care you idiot!!11
O GOD YOU ARE HOW NICE WITH ME AND MY CHILDREN,
I APPRICIATE YOUR EFFORTS TO GIVE SUCH KINDS OF INCIDENTS
BY PART BY PART AND MAKE ME A FOOL,
THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR EFFORTS,
YOU ARE THE BEST ONE WHO WAS TAKEN MORE CARE AND
DID ALL THE BAD THINGS HOW MUCH YOU CAN , I MUST THANK YOU FOR THIS ALL.
I KNOW YOU ARE NOT STILL SATISFIED WITH ALL THIS, AND PLANNING TO GIVE MORE DIFFICULTIES BY PART BY PART AND I KNOW FOR THAT ONLY YOU ARE MAKING ME ALIVE.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR ALL YOUR EFFORTS,ONCE AGAIN.
THIS IS THE LAST THING I AM REQUESTING YOU DO NOT MAKE ME FOOL AGAIN AND KEEP ALL YOUR SHOWS FOR SOMEBODY
I KNOW THERE IS NO OTHER FOR WHOM WHO CAN PLAY THIS KIND OF ALL ---.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR DESTROYING MY FAMILY ONCE AGAIN.
AND FOR TOOK AWAY MY LITTLE LOVABLE DAUGHTER FROM ME
WHO CAN DO ALL THIS WITHOUT YOU.
THANK YOU AND I MUST THANK YOU FOR THIS ALL
I KNOW NOW YOU ARE SEEING ME HOW THIS WOMAN IS STILL ALIVE AND COMING FOR DAILY DUTIES AND YOU ALSO KNOW FOR ME THERE IS NO OTHER WAY HOW CRUEL YOU ARE, AND I AM THANKING YOU FOR THIS ALL.
YOU ARE THE MASTER WHO CAN BEET ME IN MY LIFE AND DESTROY MY LIFE IN TO DARK AND MAKE STROMES AND YOU CAN DO SUCH THINGS WHAT YOU CAN.
AND I AM THE FOOL WHO KNOWS ONLY CRYING AND CRYING AND CAN NOT SAY ANYTHING TO ANYBODY BECAUSE THERE IS NOBODY FOR ME EXCEPT YOU WHO GIVES ME ALL THIS THINS .
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR ALL MY GOD.
I CAN NOT SPEAK TO ANYBODY AND I CAN NOT WEEP BEFORE ANYBODY I CANNOT SHARE MY THOUGHTS AS THERE IS NOBODY AND I CAN NOT BE CALM AS YOUR DRAMAS ON ME IS VERY PAINFUL.
THANK YOU GOD AFTER ALL THIS WHAT CAN I TELL YOU EXCEPT THIS.
LET US SEE HOW MANY DAYS YOU WILL SIT ON MY HEAD AND MAKE THESE THINGS.
I AM WAITING FOR YOUR NEXT DRAMA …