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I Want to Tell You About 'not Rape'

Me And Him

By: Twoisbetterthenone4
Written on March 19th, 2010





I was raped on may 24, 2008

even though it is 2010 it still hurts a lot



my boyfriend took me into the woods pulled down my pants and raped me

i didn't know rape could happen to me

so i was in denial for a long time

thinking it was sex...........................................

but it wasn't





I was 17 and he was 14 turning 15

he said he would never hurt me

but he did

we dated for 3 months

He said he would kill himself if i left him

he hit me

Raped me

And disrespectful to everyone that was around him



After he raped me it took me until i had my first pap smear to finally tell my mom

September 09 on was the hardest because i was in court testifying against him

he got 9 months in juive jail

and now he is on the streets like he did nothing wrong.

By: Twoisbetterthenone4
Age: 18-21 , Female
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  • AlohaJim
    AlohaJim

    My experience was life changing. I was significantly drugged and was not aware. Then the rape and attempted murder upon me, over Christmas, many, many, many years ago. Never give up. I've testified at statehouse hearings and other venues, though not too often. Absolutely, no one knew for over 15 years, till I thought I was crazy. I've tried many healing modalities, some have worked and some, well----. Quiet massage, breathwork, prayers, and many many recovery meetings have helped. The intrusive thoughts are very infrequent. Yet, Xmas will always be difficult, I just accept it. I work towards prevention of child sex abuse, locally, and worldwide -- it helps. Though, I was not a victim as a child, gratefully. Keep strong. Stay in the moment, and breathe.

    Mar 27, 2012
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  • gardenbeauty
    gardenbeauty

    i was raped when i was 12 by a guy my age that i was "dating." i'm 22 now & it still feels like yesterday. i go to counseling for it & have my parents as support but it is still hard. i'm sorry you have to go through this... just know that you are not alone, & if you ever need anyone to talk to, i'm on here & then there are also free counseling options in your area. it really helps to get it out... although it's still hard for me & i'm not fully healed from it (i developed vaginismus from it), i don't get as many flashbacks (found out i have PTSD) & i don't get that many nightmares. i used to see him EVERYWHERE & it would scare me so much, but i haven't "seen" him in a while. the part of all of this i'm still having problems with is the disassociation. my world feels surreal sometimes but that's a coping mechanism i picked up...



    honey, i want to stress to you that you are NOT alone & that anyone who would do anything like that to you is evil. in a way, these experiences are blessings in disguise because we both are more careful about who we allow around us, but it should never have to resort to that. frankly, anyone who rapes should have their penis cut off.



    if you ever want to talk, please message me. hang in there, sweetie! you are a strong, beautiful person who deserves the world!



    - gardenbeauty.

    Nov 8, 2010
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