What I Really Want

                             

                Since I was younger I had a yearning for a family. I seen many girls in my neighborhood starting before they could support themselves and the child they had. i always know that i would be a mother but I wanted to live my childhood and finish school before that could begin. But now that I'm older I want to be sure that when I create a family that my child has to a dad not just a ***** donor that just like sleeping in my bed but a father she/he could look up to and be proud to call him daddy. A man that will choose us instead of life of different beds. I always believe that if you have a child that you should put them first and never do or say or let ANYTHING happens to them that is bad. So why am I sharing this story to a lot of people that i don't know its because I know writing this down is better for myself, to write is like a drug to me it gets me motivate and happy instead. I thinking of a family that I want in the near future but now I guess I'm looking for that daddy that i want now... To share some of my fears is part of what kind of man im looking for and since I have a genetic   blood disorder that passes down to your child is one of the reason i like the guys that i like and old- fashion and treats a women right. so that's what i want  and that all that need to be said.