Looking Up

If you read what I write on here you'll see some really depressing things yet also some pretty upbeat and happy things.   This is the nature of my life.  I tend to be at one extreme or the other most of the time.  I'd really like to think more positively though.  I like to be realistic and therefore I cannot expect to always think happy thoughts, but at the same time many of my negative thoughts are not realistic and are just me beating myself up and saying things that are not true.  I don't know why I torture myself in such ways.  I need to learn to think more positively about myself.
ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
41-45, M
3 Responses Jun 11, 2007

Well I don't think changing thought patterns is generally a 'right now' kinda thing. I think occasionally we can have some dramatic insight that changes our lives and our thinking but mostly change comes over time....with patience. Be patient with yourself and with others and things will start to look better.

Do you have a plan for how to make that happen? I need one right now.

i used to do the same thing. i'm still my own worst critic. however, as i've put a few years on myself, done the whole self realization, life trauma, physical trauma, reflection and healing period, etc. (you know the routine) i've become more comfortable with who i am - even though i'm not really sure who she is from day to day ... hehe. anyway ... my point is that once i became more secure in my own skin that up/down and severe self criticism diminished a great deal. i'm sure you'll find the same.