Not Trusting You, And Not Trusting Others Is The Same Thing...

I love you more then anything in the world. I would do anything for you. But I can't just let the worry go and trust you. Maybe things will get better when we are together more. But for now when I barely talk to you, and when her ex's still talk to you, it's hard not to worry. I know you say you're with me not them, but I can't help the what ifs. Especially when I've seen the kind of things they say to you. I know those kind of things they say don't bother you, but they hurt me. I can't stand seeing an ex talk dirty, even if it doesnt bother you. I keep trying to tell myself, its not that I dont trust you, it's that I don't trust them. But that the exact same thing. I want to know you'll be with me always, and I know you've been busy, but it doesn't help when there are days that I barely hear from you. I'm hoping writing this helps me feel like I'm not the only one that feels like this, or make me realize something, but who knows...