The Grass Is Always Greener On The Other Side, But If We Both Think This, We Can't Both Be Correct, Can We? This Title Is Also Very Long, And I Am One Person, So It Makes It Seem Like I Have Multiple Personalties, And I Don't, Honestly, Don't WorryMy life is complex. If I were a wolf, my life would be simple. I'd live, admire nature's beauty throughout my life, and die, hopefully in a heroic way!
Living as a human... I have become accustomed to it. To change now... to suddenly plunge into the weird and yet exceedingly wonderful unknown would be both exciting and unnerving.
The trouble is... I am a wolf. In a human body. I adjusted. Not perfectly, but close enough.
Don't misunderstand this. There are many magnificent things about being human.
I've only experienced how it feels to be a wolf in my dreams. Liberating!!
Now that I've known both sides of the fence... I'm going to greedy and want an ability to switch... transform back and forth! Best of both worlds!?
These feelings... they remind me of my ftm feelings. Female body. Male brain. Hate my body. For those who've never heard of it, there you go! So I will be furious if you call me a lesbian. How can be I be so, if I am a guy? Do you call straight men lesbians? No!
I was never female. Neither gender is better than the other. I am and will always be male.
So what if I have some 'feminine' behaviours. I'm not going to change who I truly am. Not every guy is 100% 'masculine'. To put it bluntly, I'm not overly butch. I walk the fine line between butch and femme. I'm damn proud I do. It's me.
Yet, as a wolf... I can be somewhat human. The understanding guy who knows both sides of the fence very well. I am this way, I can't change it, and I couldn't imagine myself any other way. I am me... or to sum this up;