Part 1 - Higher GroundWhere does one begin?
Turning a life around... no matter what the outside perceptions might be of your troubles, no matter how large or paltry the obstacles that face you, they are still your obstacles and they are as large as they are in your eyes, regardless of their true magnitude.
And the rotten thing is that things are always terrible, difficult and insurmountable until that very last moment when suddenly you realise that you have triumphed. When is the hill fully climbed until the crest is reached, and the vista unfolds out before you, the struggle suddenly behind you.
Change happens in an instant, even if it takes a life time to build towards that moment.
A crucial mistake I have made is trying to decide and chose too much whilst at my weakest point.
One must seek higher ground: the lay of the land is not visible from the depths of the forest.
Pack all your conflicting dreams carefully for the trip, but the timefor the final choice between them is later. Let them guide you to a better place from which to decide, one foot in front of the other, to guide you away from whatever your deepest darkness is, or away from your current greatest obstruction.
Then you are in full flight, when you are at your best, that is when you will make your bravest and most beautiful decisions. That is when your understanding is at its greatest. Seek your highest heights.
(Ironically, for me, my current greatest obstruction is overuse of this website. To be sure, this should not be too hard to solve, but obviously there is something far deeper driving this. And that is where the real battle lies. )
TheTardyDodo 31-35, M 8 Responses 1 Sep 4, 2007