Learning From Past Mistakes

I've been trying to write a book for as long as I can remember about dozens if different stories, characters and plotlines. I even attempted an autobiography once, but they all met the same conclusive end: they went in the bin.

Why? Because I am notoriously impatient and a ruthless perfectionist when it comes to my writing. Let me explain.

I'll get an idea in my head that I simply MUST write down and start writing incessantly, getting tens of thousands of words down in the first day. I concoct these climactic ends, endearing characters and enthralling plotlines in my mind and imagine how it will all tie in together.

Then out of nowhere, I'll stop writing. First comes a crippling writers block that ensures my work isn't touched for weeks at a time. Then comes the lethargy that makes writing seem like more of a chore than a pleasure and finally, the self-doubt. This makes me think that it was a stupid idea and that nobody would ever want to read it. What was I thinking making this character like that? Why did I make that happen? And so it goes until I get so disheartened that I delete it or throw the work immediately in the bin.

This is a pattern that I've come to recognise and I am slowly learning to counteract its effects. I've realised that by going full pelt into the writing process so quickly, I burn myself out and bring the writers block upon myself. So this time, I'm taking it one day at a time and will/will not stop until or aftet a certain word quota has been reached each day.

I think it's just a case of pacing myself and NEVER throwing away any of my writing. Because even if I might believe it to be a heap of shite at the time, I may revisit it again months down the line and feel differently. At this point, it's all about understanding and utilizing my strengths and weaknesses to make them work for me.

It's a slow process, but who knows? Maybe this will be the year I finally finish my book!
Meeoko Meeoko
18-21, F
1 Response May 24, 2012

sounds like me, if i dont feel like my writing's/typing are perfect, which all the time are noht.. i'll juss drop it. unless i do post it somewhere, then most of the time i'll go back later in the day.. or a half year later even, read and fix what i can. any lil thing that's off really irritates the **** outtuh me. =/

Totally agree hun! I find that if I don't get down exactly what I'm thinking and why I think it, I scrap the whole lot and just think '**** it - not worth the stress'!

i hear ya sweets, we have to accept the fact we are noht perfectionist's... which we won't accept, we have problems lmfao. =D