On Your Special Day

To my everdearest bestfriend:

First, I would like to thank the ALMIGHTY for giving you 31 years of wonderful and healthy life. Second, I would like to thank you for letting me be a part of your life. Those precious years that we spent together will be treasured forever, that's for sure. I don't want to say I would be giving up whatever relationship we have right now, but I guess I have to. I am missing you always, sometimes I would get up in the middle of my sleep and just cry. I want to hug and kiss you, but I can't. And I don't know if it's still possible. I sent you a message saying that I would be happy seeing you having a family of your own. You know what, I was actually in tears and in pain while composing such message. My heart is saying I am not the right person for you, I am not the person you need, and I won't be capable of giving you the life that you deserve.

I would be doing these painful things to actually stop myself from crying everyday. Gosh, I am crying again right now. Maybe I am not ready yet to forget someone who have played a really significant role in my life, but when would be the right time?

Anyway, I was only supposed to greet you and wish something for you on your special day. My bestfriend, I have known to be a strong person, I can make people love me and hate me as well, I can make them laugh and cry at the same time, I can have them obey me otherwise they would be punished. But when you are around, I am like a lost sheep wanting to be always with a good shepherd. You've taught me a lot of things. You made me feel I am important. You've made me behave like a good being. Because of such great deeds you deserve a perfect life. I would be praying for another 31 years and even more for you. May you always be in good health, great career and a happy family. It's really painful for me to say this, but I want to see you carrying a child of your own. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
agony79 agony79
26-30, F
3 Responses Jul 14, 2010

I was indeed crying that time moonprincessxox. And it's getting worse everyday, coz even in my work, I would stop and go to the restroom and cry. This is no longer healthy for me. Sometimes while I'm on my way home I could just feel the tears falling. I don't know if this is still normal or what, but I really want to be free from any pains....! 'just have no idea how.....

You are a very caring person, this almost made me cry. Made me think of a friend I used to be close with.

thanks breezeann. Yeah I hope there's someone outta there who would love me the same way I did with my bestfriend.