It Hurts..

I still love you. I still believe in you. I still have faith in you. I don't remember the time before I loved you.

But every time you turn away from me, it hurts me. I am trying to be strong for you. I am trying to be a place you can feel safe just feeling what you are feeling. But I can't take it much longer. I need to know. I want to be with someone who loves me. I want to be with someone who thinks there might be a chance, someone who wants to try loving me.

They all said they saw you looking at me when you didn't think I was looking. were you looking for a reason to love me? Or a reason to leave?

I want to know if I should move on. I don't want to, the Gods know I don't. But what am I going to do? What can I do? I want to be loved, held. By you. But if you don't want to even try, why am I hurting myself over and over again?

I want you to know that I love you, I have faith in you, and I would die for you. But I want you to know that I'm not sure how much more pain I can take before I can't take anymore. I also want you to know that you have no right to be mean to me, even if you're in a bad mood.

Surujen Surujen
31-35, F
Mar 23, 2009