They Just Won't Believe It,

They accept me,
They love me,
But they refuse to believe me,
I am what I am, Can't help it,

They wonder why glass was my best friend,
I constantly hate myself,
I constantly hate everyone,
I wanted to be six feet under,

But not even then could I have got away from my worst enemy,
She's constantly on my shoulder,

She is me..

That's all I got..
Kidd12 Kidd12
18-21, F
2 Responses May 22, 2012

by glass i mean meth, and thank you so much!!

Holy crap kid. How old are you?!?! You've already done meth? People are trying hard drugs younger and younger these days. It really make me feel old. I never did this stuff even though I had a rough childhood. My main problem was depression which I am 100% over now.

I think whatever friends you did these drugs with you need to stay away from and make new friends. Ironically enough though it will be hard to make new friends since other groups won't want to hang with someone who did drugs which will probably make you more likely to go back to your friends who do drugs. It's the catch 22 of drug addiction. No one else wants to be influenced into doing it so they won't accept someone into their social circle who has done drugs in the past.

"They accept me,<br />
They love me,<br />
But they refuse to believe me,<br />
I am what I am, Can't help it,"<br />
<br />
Guessing this is about your parents?<br />
<br />
"They wonder why glass was my best friend,<br />
I constantly hate myself,<br />
I constantly hate everyone,<br />
I wanted to be six feet under,"<br />
<br />
I'm hoping the glass part wasn't you saying you cut yourself. I have way too many friends who use that defense mechanism. It's rather frightening because I end up waiting for their next text message to make sure they haven't actually gone through with it.<br />
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"But not even then could I have got away from my worst enemy,<br />
She's constantly on my shoulder,<br />
<br />
She is me..<br />
<br />
That's all I got.."<br />
<br />
Self loathing is something a lot of people deal with at one time or another within their life. If you ever want to talk about it or need someone to tell you how wonderfully amazing you are and how ridiculous it is to hate yourself your always welcome to message me. I end up doing that for most of my day for different people who don't realize how awesome they are so its not a big deal for me to do it for another person.