You Weren't There When I Needed You Most

To my former best friend,
I loved you. You were one of my best friends. I told you everything. I trusted you. When I was down you were the one I went to. You were among the first people I came out to about my sexuality and I was one of the first you came out to about yours. You were there for me through all of the little problems in life.
I had a massive crush on you and it took a lot for me to confess it to you. When you confessed that you liked me too I was so happy. You were the first girl crush I'd ever been able to tell and the fact that you felt the same was so incredible to me.
Then things started to go really bad. My parents found out I was bisexual. They hated me. They told me I wasn't their child. I was so depressed I tried to kill myself and even after that they kicked me out.
But suddenly you weren't there. You were so f**king selfish. When I needed you most you were too freaked out by what a mess I was to be there for me. And you blamed me. You blamed me for going so crazy and being so depressed. You couldn't handle me anymore after the reality of how sad and depressed I was became so real, when my problems became so intense.
You stopped speaking to me. You stopped seeing me. You just quietly dropped out of my life, ripping my heart out as you went.
I'm doing better now and suddenly you texted me with a casual apology about how you weren't sure how to handle me and you still have feelings for me. Now that my life has calmed down a bit you think you can just slip right back in.
But you abandoned me. You left me when I needed you most. You left me so alone and so broken.
So **** you.
AngelWings19 AngelWings19
18-21, F
Dec 3, 2012