...to Go.

I know I've put this down in say way, shape, or form before....but it's been on my mind, so time to get it out.

I want to go. To leave. To find a new place.
Here's the thing....I could do it. Right now I have the ability to. I'm not happy where I am, and I don't know if I ever will be. I'm still new to the town, and don't have any real roots or real friends. Sure I have family here, but I've lived far from them before and I love to travel so it's not like that would be an issue. I have a job, but it's not that I 'love' it or want to do it forever....plus if I stayed in the US, I could probably transfer.

Here's the hiccup. I don't know where I would/could/should go. I can't think of any place that I've been to that I loved so much I'd want to live there....so what do I do? How do I find where I should go? And moreso.....how do I know I'll like it more or it'll be better than where I am now??

I've had this freedom once before, about 10 years ago. I was living in Cincinnati, and needed a change (among other things). So I recruitted a friend, made a plan, and moved to Tampa. One of the worst decisions I've ever made. But once I was in Tampa, until some drastic events turned my world upside down, I felt stuck there....trapped. Like I might be there forever....but I was forced to change, and not for the better per se....

So now I'm stuck. Held back by two things: indecision and work. Work as in I would need a job, since I haven't been able to find that winning lotto ticket yet. But I can't exactly look for work when I have no idea where to go....

What would you do? Where would you go???
RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes
36-40, M
Jan 10, 2013